DAY 1.

Hey ya'll - happy LABOUR DAY weekend!! Can't believe summer 2018 is now behind us.. that went QUICK (always does!).  Feels like it's been a hot minute since I've been on here! Also... it doesn't feel like that long ago that I was writing a post about getting back on the wagon... well guess what?  It happened for like, 3 days and then I fell off again.  Surprise! LOL.  Because, ya know, real life.  Because I'm human.  Because losing weight sucks.  Because I like eating and drinking and I picked an unrealistic time to start up again (the middle of summer? come on Lindsay).  Because... because... because (cough, all of my shitty excuses).  If you're following me on IG though, you know I've been talking a lot about getting back on the weight loss train once summer was over.... and that day has finally come.  

So what's different this time around?  Well, nothing really.  I'm just going to try again.  I don't feel bad for failing before.  It happens.  I want to be as open and transparent with you guys as possible.  I've said over and over that the whole point of this was to show you someone real... and that comes with (a lotttt) of failure.  But I'm feeling motivated again, and have some goals in mind that I want to reach, and I want to share them with you! 


Ta-Da! Before pictures.  I'm trying to be a lot more positive this time around... so instead of looking at my before pictures thinking "oh my GODDD fatty are you SERIOUS that's what you look like right now!?" this morning I said to Kev.. "well, they're definitely better before pictures than I've had in the past."  That doesn't mean I don't have my work cut out for me, I definitely do.  But I had a lot of fun this summer... did a lot of eating, drinking (yikes), and had tons of good times with good friends... and that I don't regret!  

What I really want to focus on, of course, is healthy eating.  I did a ton of binging on some pretty unhealthy food this summer, so that is definitely #1 on the priority list of what to change again.  Normally when I start eating healthy, I cut out junk food, drink a ton of water, and focus on protein, including lean meats, tons of fruit and vegetables, and minimizing portion sizes.  In terms of exercise, I'll be focusing on trying to balance between cardio (gross) and weight training.  Specifically, I want to work on my midsection and arms (cause ya know these hips ain't goin' anywhere!!) 

((Quick note:  Announcing this to the world is out of my comfort zone so please, please no judgement!!)) 

In terms of goals, I'm focussing a lot less on the scale.  I did weigh myself this morning, but honestly it didn't phase me... so it's a little different this time around because I'm not going to be focussing on losing pounds.  I might weigh myself here and there throughout, just to see what the changes have been like, but my end goal is going to be a size rather than a weight.  Right now I'm a 14.  My end goal is to fit comfortably into a size 10, and of course, to get my energy back.  I really want to focus on how I feel and how I fit into clothes as opposed to my actual weight, because I think for women, weight is just too crazy.  It fluctuates so much, there are so many things that factor into that number so... forget dat shit.  

Anyway.  That's where I'm at.  I've received a TON of messages from followers who are interested in starting up with me.... please don't ever be afraid to message me with recipes, tips, something motivational you heard or read, goals you reached, or anything like that!  Like I say to justttt about everything... we're in it together.  Here we go!