It’s day 2 of 2019 and I’m coming to you live from my bed - sleep deprived, surrounded by Kleenex, and feeling completely defeated. Jase’s 3 day fever finally broke only for Bree to wake up with it this morning. It has literally been 3-4 months of back to back colds, flus and fevers for this household. Whenever we start to get better, another round hits and some or all of us get it. A friend of mine told me that when her kids were at the age my kids are, they went through the same thing - in and out of walk ins and always sick. It’s a brutal phase. I gotta tell ya, Kev and I both agreed that we’re ssssssoo fucking sick and tired of being sick and tired!! What can you do. My New Year’s resolution (lol, be prepared- it’s typical AF) was to refocus on health and fitness, but it feels more important to me than ever right now. I’m really eager to get back into a routine, eat healthy, take vitamins, drink water, exercise - all the good stuff. Lucky for me, Kev is feeling better and is helping me out today but I’m really keen to get my energy (and sense of taste and smell) back so I can get moving again.
So speaking of which, I wanted this year to be the year of getting my health in shape. In case you’re keeping track, this will be at least my third attempt at getting back to feeling healthy again (if you weren’t counting, you can see my documented attempts here and here). Yeah, I failed both those times. I took before pictures, did grocery orders, included recipes - once in June, then again in September - and failed. Why am I reminding you? Because I’m human. And humans fail - all the time. I had big intentions of getting “back on the wagon” and failed prettttttty fucking miserably. Because I’m a real person who needs to work on portion control and likes occasionally drinking too much. Don’t get me wrong- I’m a huge believer in body positivity and that size doesn’t matter, because I truly truly truly think that health looks different on everyone - but I do not feel healthy. I feel winded, I’m lacking energy and most recently, I’ve been sick all the time. I don’t feel great about making it a New Year’s resolution because it just feels soooo typical. Like, even I’m rolling my eyes LOL. But the fact is, whether it’s a new year or new month or new week, the point was that I wanted a fresh start. So needless to say laying in bed with yet another cold is not how I wanted to start off the year. But it’s in my head that I want to make a change again, and even though I’ve failed already a couple times, it only takes once to follow through and commit. I’ve done it in the past and I know I can do it again. So as soon as my body is ready to let me (aka as soon as I stop coughing up a lung everytime I breathe in) I’ll get back to it.
Anyway, I’ll let you guys know when and if I ever get out of this stupid bed. I’ve also been giving a lot of thought to where I want to go with the blog this year. I might take to Instagram for a little feedback but I think I want to start sharing more recipes, life chats and personal journeys with you this year. More of the day to day stuff. I love sharing clothes, products and shoes - but sometimes I feel like there are constantly things being shoved at me on my feed of the latest that I need to have or buy and it can be REALLY overwhelming, and I don’t want to do that to you guys. We have financial goals for 2019 that we want to hit (as I’m sure you have too) so I want this to be a space where we can share sales, fashion and great products, but also just the day-to-day stuff. Here’s me hoping the day-to-day stuff doesn’t bore you to death LOL.
Well, it’s back to getting some downtime. My amazing husband picked up the grocery order I placed online and is currently keeping the littles occupied while I lay down, so I better take advantage and rest up so I can kick this cold and help my babes do the same.