Happy Sunday guys! So I’ve had the desire to do absolutely shit all today (ya know, lazy sunday vibessss) - I normally allow myself one rest day/cheat day a week, and that was yesterday for me - we had homemade pizza for supper and then had some friends over, so I was drinking - and of course eating snacks. I’ve said it a million times but I’ve never felt guilty for doing that because it just lets me reset. I satisfy some cravings, and take a break from working out. Totally necessary for me. So today, even though it’s Sunday and I’d rather lay in bed with a bowl of frozen yogurt and watch non-stop reruns of Brooklyn 99, I chose a healthier lunch, I’m drinking lots of water (also necessary because, ahem, whiskey last night) and got my ass up to crush a workout.

The one thing that’s helped motivate me a lot today was actually writing this post. It’s helping me feel a little more motivated, because I wouldn’t be able to give this exciting update if I hadn’t persevered on other days just like today. On Friday I announced on Instagram I had an exciting non-scale victory to share with you guys in this update. For the sake of being completely accurate, I actually have both huge progress to share with you, and at the same time, no progress at all. Let me explain.

Let’s start with the exciting news first. I’ve mentioned before that I like trying on clothes to track progress, because once I reach my goal size and feel healthier overall, I don’t really care what my weight is. So trying on too-small clothes and having them fit again is the ultimate feeling for me. So on Friday I tried a few pairs of jeans on again to see if I was any closer to being in them- and low and behold, I not only got some of those pairs on but I did them up! In December, I couldn’t even get them on. So I went down a pants size and got back into my 14s- and that feels good! Full disclosure though. I’m not trying to take away from this accomplishment, because I’m proud of it, but just because I want to be completely and 100% honest- I only got into a few pairs of 14s, not all of them. (You know how sizing is completely infuriating and inconsistent? Yeahhhhh). So depending on what store they’re from, some of them fit, and others don’t yet. But that’s okay- because I’m confident they will soon!


So, when I got into those jeans, I thought wow! It’s not the first of the month but I’ll step on the scale anyway and see where I’m at because it must be starting to fall off now! Noooooope. I’ve lost one pound in the month of February so far. One. Fucking. Pound. I’ve worked my ass off for six days a week since the beginning of the month and lost one pound. The past couple times that I’ve gone on weight loss journeys, I averaged a loss of around 8-10 lbs per month. I worked really hard, ate healthy - just like I am now- and I was rewarded. This time, it has clearly been a different story. I don’t know whether it’s because I’m focussing more on weight training this time around, or if it’s because I don’t have as much weight to lose now as I did after having each baby so it’s coming off slower - whatever the reason may be, the weight obviously isn’t coming off like it has in the past. (I’m hoping it’s because I’m building muscle but I guess I can’t know for sure - and if the inches are coming off I really don’t care LOL).

So when I say there’s been a ton of progress and simultaneously no progress at all, this is what I mean. I haven’t lost any weight this month, but I fit into one size down pants. That right there is exactly why I don’t have a goal weight anymore. If I was still paying attention to just my weight, I’d be feeling completely discouraged from working so hard while floating around the exact same weight. I’m still sticking to my plan of weighing myself the first of every month, but I won’t be beating myself up about it anytime soon. So when people tell you not to pay attention to the scale, unless you’re in a competition and need to be in a specific weight category or something… I say believe them. Hopefully in another 6 weeks I’m writing another post because I’m down another size again! Just keep persevering guys. When you don’t feel like working out, do it anyway. When you’re feeling discouraged, keep going! Any and all changes you make to your lifestyle are amazing for your body whether you can see it or not.